Now, I can say all of this because I have gone through this before. I know what to expect. I know how I'll feel when I have to leave the squadron and drive home alone. It is very depressing, and last time I cried for 4 days. But who knows? Maybe I won't cry for 4 days, maybe only 2? I have my son to focus on this time and I really want get in shape. So I'll dedicate this time to lookin' awesome and raisin' a bangin' ass son.
We do plan on recording some videos of Josh talking so I can show Wyatt. I really don't want him to forget his father. Even if he learns that Josh is his Dad in theory, I believe it'll make the transition easier for him later. I don't want Josh to be a complete stranger to him. Next time Wyatt sees him he'll be 15 months. Very crazy. That's the only real depressing thing for me right now.
And for those that are wondering, Josh is only going to Kuwait. Much safer and boring than Afghanistan and Iraq. According to Josh, this deployment isn't even worth it. He said he'd almost rather go to Afghanistan than being away from his family for such a ridiculous and senseless deployment like going to Kuwait. I think he's crazy. I'd rather him be safe. Maybe this is another reason I'm not stressing about this deployment too much?
I just know that I need to focus on this adorable little baby and make him the best little kid he can be.
I realize that I keep taking pictures with my cell phone. Sorry. It's just much more handier these days.