Wednesday, May 5, 2010


I talked to my friend Julie today (her blog here), and we were talking about my Husband's recent news of his deploying. Now, it does suck, and I'm not thrilled. But I have to be honest, it's okay. I've dealt with this before and it really isn't the end of the world. I'm really trying to be "real" here, but I haven't even cried. I swear I'm not a bad wife. I love my husband and I adore him, I really do. I hear a lot of people tell me that they don't know what they'd do without their husband's or boyfriend's... but really, you can do a lot. In fact, life DOES go on. You go to work, take care of your kids, clean your house, visit friends, eat your favorite foods, watch your favorite shows, buy all the secret clothes you could ever want, or just simply not answer to anybody or anyone. Now, I would give all of this up to have my Husband home, but when life serves you lemons you have got to do something with those damn lemons. So I decide to make the best of it. It's the only logical and healthy thing I could do.

Now, I can say all of this because I have gone through this before. I know what to expect. I know how I'll feel when I have to leave the squadron and drive home alone. It is very depressing, and last time I cried for 4 days. But who knows? Maybe I won't cry for 4 days, maybe only 2? I have my son to focus on this time and I really want get in shape. So I'll dedicate this time to lookin' awesome and raisin' a bangin' ass son.

We do plan on recording some videos of Josh talking so I can show Wyatt. I really don't want him to forget his father. Even if he learns that Josh is his Dad in theory, I believe it'll make the transition easier for him later. I don't want Josh to be a complete stranger to him. Next time Wyatt sees him he'll be 15 months. Very crazy. That's the only real depressing thing for me right now.

And for those that are wondering, Josh is only going to Kuwait. Much safer and boring than Afghanistan and Iraq. According to Josh, this deployment isn't even worth it. He said he'd almost rather go to Afghanistan than being away from his family for such a ridiculous and senseless deployment like going to Kuwait. I think he's crazy. I'd rather him be safe. Maybe this is another reason I'm not stressing about this deployment too much?

I just know that I need to focus on this adorable little baby and make him the best little kid he can be.

I realize that I keep taking pictures with my cell phone. Sorry. It's just much more handier these days.


  1. I think I've been crying a lot because Levi isn't going to be deployed with all of his friends. I mean literally, I can think of two people he'd be going with if they even did go together. Deployments suck, but since we can't do anything about it, we just have to hope and pray everything goes right. I told my mom tonight if Levi goes..I'd more than likely just stay here. Yes it'd be hard with a kid AND dog..but like you does and HAS to go on. We're in this whether we like it or not, till that contracts says its over.

  2. yes, you are right - life goes on. And plus you've done this before so u know what to expect. And it's good that he's goint to Kuwait and not to some "other" place. And, now u have Wyatt, so u have company!!!:))

  3. I dated a guy once who was deployed, and I was devistated... (and we weren't even married!) Its good to see that you are strong for you AND your son! :) You're such a good mama!

    You'll get through this, and we'll be here for you!!!! :)

  4. I think you have the right outlook on this. And of course, you can always visit me or some of your many other loved ones. Like you said, you went through this before, you had Wyatt (though, he was in your belly at the time) and you have him now. Just keep being a great mom to my nephew! And don't hesitate if you need a break or support, even if its just venting on the phone.

    Just accomplish your goals while he is away. Raise a beautiful son to make Josh proud. And work on yourself. Look at it as time to dedicate to yourself and Wyatt.

  5. You have a precious boy to take care of. Popped over from Brittany's blog to say hi! Nice to meet you.

  6. Came over from Brittany's blog to meet you. So sorry about your hubby getting deployed. I am in awe of military families. It's such a sacrifice for everyone and I truly appreciate it. Your little boy is adorable!

  7. Totally understand. Husbands are awesome, but really...I could take it or leave it. I love my Brad, but I can honestly say that I would be OKAY if something (God forbid) happened to him and I was on my own. It actually feels pretty good that I am (for once) alright with the state of myself, and am comfortable in my own skin that I could be alone. I think the hardest thing will be when you need a "freakin" break from being a mommy..Good thing you have so many awesome friends and family that will gladly watch W while you take a 2 hour bath!

  8. so sorry bout your hubby being deployed. that sucks. i agree with Rocktheboom i would obviously miss my hubby but its a good feeling knowing i could be okay if he were gone.
    us women are a lot stronger than the men give us credit for.

  9. My husband just got home from a 10 month deployment in Kuwait. Good for you on handling so well! You are a strong woman and I'm glad I found your blog!!


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