I seriously just held my son until he passed his little self out. He just would not go to sleep. I don't understand why he fights it so hard sometimes. I mean, he's rubbing his eyes, crying out in desperation, and yet he still holds on to being awake. So I just held him in my lap and gently rocked him until he slowly drifted off.
Am I one of the only Mother's on this earth that actually gets ANGRY at the sound of her child's scream? I can't help it. I'm cool with general crying, but when he belts off SUPER FREAKIN' LOUD screams, I get irritated, and then it quickly morphs to being plain ole pissed. Of course I would never do anything to hurt my child, but I do think it makes the situation worse because he can sense my anger. I've been thinking that I would actually get some ear plugs because it's just the volume that makes me mad. And it's not just his cries, truthfully, I hate all loud noises. Just ask my family. I have freaked out on all of them from time to time.
God I feel like such a douche for typing that. Sorry world. I'm real. Man, I'm a jerk. Sorry guys.
This week has really generally been kinda sucky though.
Day 1. Bad picture day with Wyatt at The Picture People.
Day 2. SHOTS!!!!
Day 3. The aftermath of the shots.
Day 4. THE SICKNESS!!!!
Day 5. Still sick.
So, I guess it wasn't all that bad. But it felt kinda not good.
On a lighter note, my sister is coming down to see me this weekend. We plan on having a very low key, chill out kinda weekend. I'm looking forward to that.
(I swear I do love being a mother...)