Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Temporary Relief

For some reason my internet is working? I don't know. I hate my internet. It seriously losing connection every 20 minutes

Thanks to everyone for all of their concerns. It was really sweet. I didn't actually have that great of a night last night. I tried letting Wyatt cry it out in his bed, and it didn't go so well. It wasn't bad either though. He cried and cried and I eventually went and took a long hot shower to drown me out his cries. Everything was quiet after about 30 minutes, so I went in and checked on him. He was asleep siting up leaning face first on the mesh from the pack and play. I think he was asleep with his eyes open? But the door creaked when I opened it and he woke up and started smiling and looking at me all excited like. It melted my heart so I picked him up and let him finish his night with me in the living room. We went to bed at 11 last night.

Today has been pretty good. Normal napping and generally good attitude. I feel like I've been a better Mama today too. I've been more engaging and loving. Do you ever feel like that? I do at least. Some days I feel like I'm a better mother than others. I think like, I'm just more there for him or something. I know that's bad, but i'm just being honest. I can be a crummy Mom I think. I just kinda go numb some days and just don't feel like playing patty cake and talking in my insanely high pitched baby voice.



BEWARE OF THE CRAIG'S.

15 comments:

  1. I'm glad today was a better day. This makes me smile. Really, it does. You are an awesome mommy! :)

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  2. Try as I might I cannot get him on a schedule especially concerning bed time. He's just not a baby that thrives on schedules. Sometimes he's wired until 11pm. Sometimes he goes down at 7 pm. And I've tried the cry it out and it doesn't work for him. And I hate it. But sometimes when there is no break and no help I lose it because I'm human and I have to put him in a safe place and let him cry and do as you did - take a shower or some sort of breather somewhere for a little bit. It makes us better moms when we come back to them. That is what matters.

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  3. Glad to hear you both had a better day. All us mommies have days like that - I feel like the best mom in all the world one day and the next I feel like I can't get anything right. Hang in there.

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  4. Any mom that says she DOESN'T have days like that should be slapped in their lyin' mouth!

    I have days like that - days where you look at your precious baby and think to yourself "what do I do with you now?" Sometimes you just run out of stuff to do with them. It gets so much better the older they get because they have more preferences and a desire to be more independent. There are more options the older they get. I love it.

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  5. Right there with you. I have days where I play and play, sing and dance, go for walks and to make every meal. Then there are days where she is happy to play on her own and I spend it watching Teen Mom online....
    So glad to know I am not the only one who ebbs and flows in her mom skills.

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  6. It's always easier to be the sweet mommy when your kid is happy and life is easy. We all have those days (and it doesn't change when they get older).

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  7. I have days like that as well! Some days are awesome, others- not so much! It's okay, though. We try our best, and when it doesn't go so well, we learn from it and try harder the next day. -Mandy

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  8. that mat would be perfect for our pirate house :) lol

    I have "those" days too! Sometimes I am all silly and creative, and other days I just want to stay in my pj's, watch tv, make pb and J's and blog! Of course that doesn't typicaly happen, but some days thats what I want! :))

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  9. I'm a crummy Mom on some days & the most kick ass Mom ever on others. I think we all are.

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  10. Me too with the crazy days. Sometimes it's just too tiring to push yourself to be the "perfect" mom. Yesterday really headed down the drain for me too. LOTS of crying and no naps. Ugh.

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  11. Ummmm... I totally wrote a comment and blogger went all lame. I don't know if it went through. Anywho... Me too on the can't be a perfect mom all the time. It's an extreme full time job. Hard to always be smiling.

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  12. i totally have better mommy days then others. i think every mom does. unless she's super mom!

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  13. This cracked me up, seriously. I was laughing so hard over your shower comment and your photos. I totally feel you with the better mom on some days comment. Also, I'm really bad at telling myself "we'll he probably gets way more attention than some babies do and they turn out just fine..." and then let myself off the hook for a while. that's just awful.

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  14. i love how honest you are. i have days like that too were im more spacey and the tv is on all day and then others (well most days) i rock it. i agree with what allie said above that i give him way more attention than most babes prob get and then i feel less guilty about my "off" days.
    whatever hendrix and i are together literally 24/7..i cant be perfect all the time right?

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  15. I think every mum has "bad mum" days. Today was one of mine. I am glad though to know that I'm not the only one :)

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