It's funny, I have never felt more pressure to be EVERYTHING at once until I became a mother. For some one who "doesn't work" I often feel like I'm just not doing enough. A part of it is my own laziness, and I sort of hate having deadlines and so my natural instinct is to rebel. I don't know why I do this? I hate rules I guess? I don't know.
I'm constantly feeling this pressure to do it all. I need to work on this blog, keep my house clean, do design work, TAKE CARE OF MY KID HEAVEN FORBID, run, shower, answer emails, or whatever else. BLAH BLAH BLAH I'M WHINING HERE... but you know, I just can't help but to share it with all of you. Before Wyatt, what did I even do with myself? I can't believe I'd spend an hour getting ready in the morning. AN HOUR? REALLY? DOING WHAT?
I need to start prioritizing. I need to start MAKING myself do things. When I feel like I have a lot to do in a day, I end up just reverting into myself.
I really want to make a change in how I manage my day. I need some sort of help I think. Like, a schedule or something? Ugh... a schedule. I'm so not a schedule person. The only thing scheduled around here is nap time... can't be late.