Yesterday I mentioned how I was depressed and shopping was like therapy for me. An evil therapy that didn't actually do anything but make me feel worse.
Well, I got this comment from Deanna-
That comment really hit home for me. Sometimes I think as an artist, or just a general creator of things, I need to feel a little heart tugging before I feel motivated to act. And if I don't, I simulate these feelings with music- just to inspire me.
Sometimes I need that extra sadness to stay up late and throw myself into a project. It feels good to just wrap my brain around something I'm making... using that time to think about things. Then I find that I'm creating up a storm.
The best way I can describe this for someone who doesn't find themselves to be very creative- it's like when you're REALLY getting into cleaning your house. You're thinking about things and you're just going from room to room killin' it. You're so deep in thought that cleaning is just what your body is doing, but your mind is somewhere else. I think that's what it's like for me, but with art, writing, photography, video... or whatever.
So about my post yesterday, I don't know if I'll ever want to do anything about my depression. It seems to make me who I am. An inspired person wanting to create based on her mood and feelings. I just need to learn how to channel it better.