I know I've bitched and moaned about being depressed and bummed out quite a bit on this blog. The truth is, it's really been a struggle for me. I'm realizing that post partum hasn't actually left me quite yet. I don't know if it ever quite LEAVES... or if you just learn to cope better? There have been times when I feel like things are awesome and I'm finally through feeling frustrated and overwhelmed with every little thing, and then BAM, I have a rough week and I'm feeling it again. It's like a brick on your chest and you can't breathe.
So I've decided to get some help. I've been taking Lexapro for about a month now and I'm feeling better. I found myself TRULY playing with Wyatt yesterday. And not that I didn't play with him before, but I'm going to confess, I'd get over it quickly and could only handle so much. It's terrible, but it was my reality. And I'd constantly be fighting the guilt of feeling like a bad mother... it was a never ending cycle.
But back to feeling better- I am. I'm not quite 100 percent yet, and my expectations aren't to be 100 percent, but I'm striving to do/be the best I can.
I just want to share with any of you that might be struggling, it's okay to go seek some outside help. It's good for you and your family. Especially as women, we should feel okay about asking for help. No shame.