4 years! It’s been 4 years since I’ve stepped foot into the work place. When I was pregnant with Wyatt, Josh was deployed and I felt so overwhelmed and tired. I was working back then for a little bit but it became insanely obvious that I was probably going to quit. I shouldn’t have. I should have just stuck it out and not been so whiny, but I was feeling tired and blah and honestly, we were financially comfortable enough for me to not work. The drive to get up and go was NOT there (remember? pregnant?). But looking back now, I realize that was such a waste of time and money. What did I even do with my time? I also probably wasted more money since I was always out and about being pregnant eating all the donuts that I craved. Amateur move Jess! (For the record, there's nothing wrong with people who don't and do work while pregnant.)
Fast forward to now… I’ve been mostly working on this blog and doing freelance graphic design. I’ve always seemed to bring in money somehow just doing projects here and there, but nothing has been steady and there are instances where I'm just flat out bored out of my mind. I was feeling like my days had no meaning (I know children give us meaning blah blah blah). I started looking for work this year and had a few interviews and a lot of striking out. I’m happy to say I’ve finally found something for me. I’m the new Marketing Director for Curves in my community and I’m stoked about it. It’s been an exciting week because everything just fell into place so perfectly, I couldn't believe it. I've always struggled with my self-worth since I wasn't able to pull my own weight financially.
I’ve gotten sooooooooo comfortable staying home (NO SHOWERS! PAJAMAS ALL DAY!), but it’s time for me now to go back to work. Wyatt is going to be 4 in the fall. He’s pretty flexible and I don’t have anxiety over all the things you usually have anxiety over when dealing with a baby because he's NOT a baby. To be honest, I’m pretty bored with staying home and I’m ready to go out there and put my energy into something productive. (I really hope this isn't coming off like people who stay home with their kids aren't productive... it's just I think I'm happier if I go back to work. If mama is happy, everyone is happy.)
So anyway, just wanted to share that I got a J O B and I'm really happy about it.