Wednesday, September 18, 2013
My new job
So, yesterday was my first day at my new job. I was nervous. Like, really, really nervous. I totally brought on unnecessary anxiety and I let it consume me and yadda yadda yadda... I'm a crazy person.
At times yesterday I felt so overwhelmed that I thought I wasn't going to make it. I had this crazy impulse to be like, FUCK THIS SHIT and then leave (just kidding, but not...). My heart was racing... I was thinking about how comfy my home is and being a stay at home mom has become for me (hey, I have one kid, remember?) and I started to reason with myself if this was even worth it. My last job was pretty much out of my car/from home. Now mind you, this was all happening in my brain when I was overwhelmed and irrational, I'm sure you all have been there. You're practically insane when you're stressed. I had to blink away a few tears and literally slap myself out of being weepy. Maybe I was just really tired? I dunno.
Then all of a sudden, things started to click. I started to understand. And the stuff I didn't understand I was okay with not understanding because I started to gain confidence that I would eventually understand. Everyone was crazy nice to me and this is probably the most positive work environment I've ever been around. People are always congratulating each other on doing a good job and everyone was very supportive of my little progresses. I feel really lucky.
And in case you're wondering, I got a job at a water purification company. It's really cool and I'm really excited to have this job. I wanted it so bad and I can't believe they chose me. Okay, gotta leave for work!