Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Happy again


Things are going good over here. I've been feeling like we're finally getting out of that funk that we were in for a few months. I felt like my life was out of control and I wasn't very happy. I couldn't get a stable job- I felt like a failure. Negative comments towards me felt like they were being screamed in my face. I was depressed and sad. I'm thankfully past all of that and I'm starting to breathe easier. I'm feeling good. 

My life is becoming routine and it's such a nice change. I was sure that I would never enjoy working, ever. I've talked about it a few times before here, questioning why it was that I hated work more than the average person? But I love my job and I feel really satisfied at the end of the day. It's a nice change.

When I get off work, spend it with my family and I actually have a chance to miss them. That's something else that I wasn't feeling and honestly needed to feel. I've talked about this with my husband a few times, but I think being a stay at home mom was draining me; making me depressed. I feel so much more useful as a parent now that I work. I know this isn't the case for everyone, but it's definitely working for me and I'm very happy to be working again. I'm greeted by my happy kid everyday and I don't feel overwhelmed anymore. My mind is pretty much in a state of happy calm from being stimulated at work during the day, and then being able to relax with my family at night.

On my days off I'm happy to get up, make pancakes for my baby and relax all day.

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